Corkscrew!!

Am not quite sure what inspired me to write once again on this blog. It was silly enough that I couldn't recollect the username and password at the first go and thought to myself, “OMG! Has it really been that long?”

Yes it has been…..I started this blog in April 2008 and now its November 2008, in another 13 days am gonna be an year older…Damn!!. Yep, it’s been real long.

This how it was meant to be. I started this blog promising myself to get into the habit of penning down stuff but hey I don't get time or lets just say am lazy. I know you would believe the later part though. Sometimes there is just too much going in my head and I think I lose a track of things and then I need someone to just pinch me real hard and say “hey, welcome to reality!”

Now this is how it is. Life is a roller coaster ride in true sense. Yaaa….am not kidding man it is! You never know when a sudden turn can make your heart beat racing at the speed of a F1 car or when a slow upward climb makes you feel that you have conquered all your fears and just that moment the machines gear up and you hear them roaring loud and you know that its gonna be one helluva ride. But then, are you ready? Remember how as kids we would play Hide and Seek and then someone would scream, “Ready or not, here I come”. Yes that's how life is. Unpredictable!

Well I know what you thinking, “Hell, did this girl just return from some amusement park?” Okay, wouldn’t lie and guess what yes I did. I had some crazy rides in Genting highlands amusement park at Malaysia. Am not a tough person and I wouldn't boast that I did all the scary rides. But I did try a few. Especially a ride called “Corkscrew”. As the name suggests it makes the rider feel like a cork stuck up the neck of a exotic wine at times during the ride. The mention of the wine….hmm lets just say I am in a good mood. So…yes I tried this ride after much self conviction that the rides wouldn't kill me! And here I am still alive just a little less scared and a bit tougher. :P

Reminds me of the time I came to Singapore - scared, excited, heart broken, unsure and yet a big smile on my face. Leaving home for a 3 months short term assignment was a tricky situation for me. I mean who wouldn’t wanna go over seas and earn an extra buck or even more and tour places, considering it was my first onsite assignment. I had been waiting for this even before I joined Wipro! So when I was called in the conference room by the Project Manager on 30th June 2008, I couldn't stop the excitement building within. I was not aware what was going on but all the senior managers were looking at me with some kinda signals beaming in their eyes and I knew am up for something here!

So it was out, I got the assignment! And I had to tell them then and there a Yes or a No. Phew my brain stopped functioning for minute. I still remember all the chaos in my head and the excitement in my belly. I wouldn't say that I had two opposite forces fighting within because there were like a dozen of them! Each one with its own reasoning either pushing or pulling me! In that very millisecond something told me that I have to accept this and this could be a way out! Did I say way out?

Now I think about it and it reminds me of the roller coaster ride. I wasn’t ready but I had to move either forward or stay put. There was no u- turn there. I am not sure whether I took a wise decision then because I believe there is nothing like a perfect decision in the world. And nobody is perfect. And maybe sometimes we take the wisest decisions in the midst of the most confusing situations. And now I know that I am happy with my decision.

Today I am at Singapore, a place I was planning to visit pretty soon anyways. It’s my first onsite assignment. I have learnt so much from this opportunity professionally. Got a taste of the real corporate world to some extent. Made and lost friends! Traveled like a real tourist. Globe trotted and got my Passport stamped at Indonesia and Malaysia. This might not sound very exciting for people who have been in far fetched lands. But for me, a girl from a small nuclear family with an ex-army man as my Dad and a loving housewife as my mum, my life has offered me more than I could imagine.

I said it was a wise decision because I freed myself from some bonds and chains I had been carrying with me for the past few years. Can’t say exactly what I mean by these bonds and chains but I just feel….Free! And am back to being myself. And today I live my life if not exactly, probably the best way I would have wanted to. And this feeling is enough to get me going.

It’s not complete and there are missing pieces but this time I know I need a change. I don't want the old parts so am gonna go out and explore and maybe shop and find something that fits me or rather something I fit into and feel complete. It’s not fun doing everything alone every time too J

And yes, my ride isn’t over I can see the 360 degree turn coming right around the corner and am not sure if am ready! But then do I have a choice? So here I go…..yuuuuuuuhhhhhoooooo!!