Am not quite sure what inspired me to write once again on this blog. It was silly enough that I couldn't recollect the username and password at the first go and thought to myself, “OMG! Has it really been that long?”
Yes it has been…..I started this blog in April 2008 and now its November 2008, in another 13 days am gonna be an year older…Damn!!. Yep, it’s been real long.
This how it was meant to be. I started this blog promising myself to get into the habit of penning down stuff but hey I don't get time or lets just say am lazy. I know you would believe the later part though. Sometimes there is just too much going in my head and I think I lose a track of things and then I need someone to just pinch me real hard and say “hey, welcome to reality!”
Yes it has been…..I started this blog in April 2008 and now its November 2008, in another 13 days am gonna be an year older…Damn!!. Yep, it’s been real long.
This how it was meant to be. I started this blog promising myself to get into the habit of penning down stuff but hey I don't get time or lets just say am lazy. I know you would believe the later part though. Sometimes there is just too much going in my head and I think I lose a track of things and then I need someone to just pinch me real hard and say “hey, welcome to reality!”
Now this is how it is. Life is a roller coaster ride in true sense. Yaaa….am not kidding man it is! You never know when a sudden turn can make your heart beat racing at the speed of a F1 car or when a slow upward climb makes you feel that you have conquered all your fears and just that moment the machines gear up and you hear them roaring loud and you know that its gonna be one helluva ride. But then, are you ready? Remember how as kids we would play Hide and Seek and then someone would scream, “Ready or not, here I come”. Yes that's how life is. Unpredictable!
Well I know what you thinking, “Hell, did this girl just return from some amusement park?” Okay, wouldn’t lie and guess what yes I did. I had some crazy rides in Genting highlands amusement park at Malaysia. Am not a tough person and I wouldn't boast that I did all the scary rides. But I did try a few. Especially a ride called “Corkscrew”. As the name suggests it makes the rider feel like a cork stuck up the neck of a exotic wine at times during the ride. The mention of the wine….hmm lets just say I am in a good mood. So…yes I tried this ride after much self conviction that the rides wouldn't kill me! And here I am still alive just a little less scared and a bit tougher. :P
Reminds me of the time I came to Singapore - scared, excited, heart broken, unsure and yet a big smile on my face. Leaving home for a 3 months short term assignment was a tricky situation for me. I mean who wouldn’t wanna go over seas and earn an extra buck or even more and tour places, considering it was my first onsite assignment. I had been waiting for this even before I joined Wipro! So when I was called in the conference room by the Project Manager on 30th June 2008, I couldn't stop the excitement building within. I was not aware what was going on but all the senior managers were looking at me with some kinda signals beaming in their eyes and I knew am up for something here!
So it was out, I got the assignment! And I had to tell them then and there a Yes or a No. Phew my brain stopped functioning for minute. I still remember all the chaos in my head and the excitement in my belly. I wouldn't say that I had two opposite forces fighting within because there were like a dozen of them! Each one with its own reasoning either pushing or pulling me! In that very millisecond something told me that I have to accept this and this could be a way out! Did I say way out?
Now I think about it and it reminds me of the roller coaster ride. I wasn’t ready but I had to move either forward or stay put. There was no u- turn there. I am not sure whether I took a wise decision then because I believe there is nothing like a perfect decision in the world. And nobody is perfect. And maybe sometimes we take the wisest decisions in the midst of the most confusing situations. And now I know that I am happy with my decision.
Today I am at Singapore, a place I was planning to visit pretty soon anyways. It’s my first onsite assignment. I have learnt so much from this opportunity professionally. Got a taste of the real corporate world to some extent. Made and lost friends! Traveled like a real tourist. Globe trotted and got my Passport stamped at Indonesia and Malaysia. This might not sound very exciting for people who have been in far fetched lands. But for me, a girl from a small nuclear family with an ex-army man as my Dad and a loving housewife as my mum, my life has offered me more than I could imagine.
I said it was a wise decision because I freed myself from some bonds and chains I had been carrying with me for the past few years. Can’t say exactly what I mean by these bonds and chains but I just feel….Free! And am back to being myself. And today I live my life if not exactly, probably the best way I would have wanted to. And this feeling is enough to get me going.
It’s not complete and there are missing pieces but this time I know I need a change. I don't want the old parts so am gonna go out and explore and maybe shop and find something that fits me or rather something I fit into and feel complete. It’s not fun doing everything alone every time too J
And yes, my ride isn’t over I can see the 360 degree turn coming right around the corner and am not sure if am ready! But then do I have a choice? So here I go…..yuuuuuuuhhhhhoooooo!!
6 comments:
nice read.. indeed something which resonates with all of us.. or rather i would feel that way, coz it sure resonates with me..
liked that line, "a little less scared and a little tougher.."
thats how we all grow in life.. become tougher, stronger, wiser, .. hmm.. better.. :-)
Cheers and write on!
Am.
thankz Amol.....appreciate the comments.
wen do u plan to post ur next entry...
waiting!!!
HERE'S A DIFFERENT KIND OF REALITY IN THE U.S.A. THAT PEOPLE TURN A BLIND EYE TO BUT AFFECTS THEM DAILY AND WILL EVENTUALLY KILL SOCIETY AS YOU & I BOTH KNOW IT UNLESS WE STAND UP & STOP THEM!
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PART 1
THE U.S. CITIZENS HAVE THEIR BRAINS SCRAMBLED VIA FLUORIDE IN THE WATER & ALL THE ASPERTAME THEY CONSUME IN POP DRINKS, BUT THERE IS MORE.....
You see, Bush Sr., & Jr., Clinton, Regan, Carter, Obama, Ford...ALL these presidents are in what is dubbed a SECRET SOCIETY called The Moloch Axis Demoniacs (i coined the phrase myself...Dr. A.P. and i don't use my full name because WHO knows WHAT sinister crap they'd do to me IF they found out?) or M.A.D. for short.
These people, and there’s obviously more of them (Cheney, Rumsfeld etc.) than the ones mentioned, control KEY positions not just in government, business, society etc. They are GRADUALLY erroding MORAL/FAMILY VALUES in society. SO gradual that it's like hairloss! You see it ever so slowly and you have to be a keen eye to boot!
For example, women in the workforce...they go to work so WHO takes care of the kids? Some goofs getting minimum wage who could care less about those kids. Family split apart because NOW both parents work and the cost of life itself purposely increased to perpetuate this separation. Kids grow up with NO moral/family values. Repeat this a few generations and before you know it, you have mindless zombies that don't know RIGHT from WRONG! Easily programmable to get in debt, be anti-christ-like etc.
Also, the coming mark of the beast 666. Remember HOW it all used to be ca$h only? Then they introduced checks, then credit cards to get yourself in serious financial troubles, then ATM cards, and now that STUPID SWIPE-PASS card. What is the purpose of all this? To get people broken down enough and stupid enough through putting FLUORIDE in the drinking water and ASPERTAME in soda drinks/pop cans so we ALL can accept the 666 chip. So NOBODY can buy or sell or own ANYTHING lest he has the mark of the beast (anti-christ) which is 666.
I can go on for days & days as to the subtleties and more examples but i think you all SEE the points i make here. It's all SUBTLE and GRADUAL negative changes day in & day out that these M.A.D. demons (because they are demonic and have placed their trust in demons in exchange for their souls and material possessions here on earth) are passing into laws in Canada, USA, UK, SPAIN, FRANCE etc.
PART 2
They are genetically modifying the food so that the REAL NORMAL SEEDS will eventually be extinct and the modified canola, corn, soy and cotton seeds will be the ONLY ones left. Genetically modified means that these NEW seeds that are in almost ALL USA store bought products have the herbicide, fungicide, pesticide and who knows what already in the seed. THEREFORE, when you eat that mishmash, WHO THE HELL KNOWS WHAT IT WILL DO TO YOUR INTESTINES OVER TIME! And of course, the industry (Monsanto) TELLS US.."Ohhh..it's ALL safe to eat jajajaja". SAFE TO EAT? Just look at the bees landing on these genetically modified crops and their stomachs are being ripped apart & THEY DIE! Yet you SEE HOW funny it is on TV/MEDIA that NOBODY, including the M.A.D. payed-off demonic scientists don't even whisper/mention the OBVIOUS that i just stated here?
Like i said, i can go on and on for days giving you more & more & more examples of the gradual demonic end-game these M.A.D. are playing with us. But like i said, i think you all reading this get the picture. And by the way, i am a Dr. and guess what? I DO NOT WORK FOR THE M.A.D. OR HAVE SOLD MY SOUL TO A DEMON! But....i live in virtual poverty somewhere on this planet with a family to feed and barely scrape by. And IF you think that sounds bad, well, this AIN'T nothing compared to what the M.A.D. have in store for ALL of us in the aforementioned countries (and more) i listed. And again, ALL their moves are subtle and gradual like a chessgame being played out with the regular folks as the pawns.
I sometimes WONDER WHY the regular folks in these countries NEVER do ANYTHING TO STOP these demonic morons. It doesn't matter IF you vote Republican or Democrat because from those 2 choices, they are BOTH a part of M.A.D. Same with Canada and their Liberal or Conservatives...same M.A.D. , and on and on and on. I sometimes wonder.....you NEVER see ANY of these M.A.D. criminals go to trial or imprisoned for fraud on the people yet IF little billy J-Walks across a bussy street he gets a ticket he must pay! When will Bush Jr. & Cheney and ALL those involved in blowing up 3 buildings in Manhattan and blaming it on Arabs EVER be brought to justice? NEVER because when it FINALLY is discovered what they did, they'll be safely dead from old age and the vast majority of the people in the USA will be soooo brainwashed with NO moral/familiy values they will have already taken up the 666 mark and be worshipping the anti-christ.
PART 3
Sometimes it makes one wonder WHY there are NO good people that will step up (with God as their guide) and put a STOP to these M.A.D.?? That is one of the BIGGEST questions i ask myself almost everyday! Maybe people are SCARED? Maybe they are waiting for God to MAGICALLY guide them without realizing that God doesn't work in that manner/way.
I just HOPE somebody puts a STOP to M.A.D. or we are ALL going to be really in BIG trouble!
The above is a LOT to think about, believe me, i have been living it since 2005, and jobless to boot! And i am a Dr. so go figure?? But i WILL NEVER SELL MYSELF TO A DEMON OR THE M.A.D. so how about them cookies :)
Peace be unto you and please WAKE UP PEOPLE!
+Dick Cheney Loves the demon moloch from hell and wants to destroy earth too! Just look at what his
Moloch Axis Demoniac HALLIBURTON company did in the Gulf of Mexico with the offshore oil rig…need I say more? Cheney is RESPONSIBLE for the atmospheric CHEMTRAIL pollution program sprinkling toxic Aluminum & Barium Oxide to alter the weather and poison the plants, soil and people to make way for genetically modified foodstuffs to further poison us! STOP THESE DEMONS NOW!!!!!!!
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